Worthy of suffering?

40 And to him they agreed: and when
they had called the apostles, and beaten
them, they commanded that they should
not speak in the name of Jesus, and let
them go.
41 And they departed from the presence
of the council, rejoicing that they were
counted worthy to suffer shame for his
name.
42 And daily in the temple, and in every
house, they ceased not to teach and preach
Jesus Christ.
(From The Evidence Bible, Bridge-logos)

I only wish that I could carry out that attitude. I spend way too much time being upset when anything bad happens to me. I can only imagine how I would act if it happened to me for my faith in Christ.

I would like to believe that I would act appropriately, but I know better. I am a human being and therefore suffer the weaknesses that all humans suffer. When I am faced with adversity I try to alleviate the situation by adapting to whatever standards are required of me.

In other words, I would wimp out. More than likely before the first lashing of the whip.

Jesus was scourged and hung from a cross for me and for some reason I can't seem to repay Him for that in a way that I feel is in keeping with His sacrifice. Is that what He expects of me? Will he be disappointed with me on judgment day because I would whine about my knee injury and He had nails driven into His flesh!